June Tidbits: A Dark Night & The Return to Self

Recently, I went through a major life change. Before this became major, small changes were happening within me. I was learning about myself, my truth, my capacity, and the person I wanted to become— the person I was capable of becoming, and even began to get a clearer picture of what I wanted out of life. As everything started to get more clear, I had to face some serious fears and make a change, a change that would impact not only my own life, but those around me. Although I knew in my soul this was the right thing to do, little was I prepared for taking action on this to trigger a domino that unleashed multiple other truths I had been blind to in my life. These truths hit me like a ton of bricks. Childhood wounds surfaced, old versions of myself along with patterns of destruction came on like a tidal wave. I wasn’t prepared, and as I was sucked into the current it felt as if I had lost all self-awareness practices, healing tools and everything I had learned to get me to that point was pulled out from under me. It felt as though I had fallen into a black hole FAST and HARD. Insecurities, fears, doubts, worry coursed through my veins like I hadn’t felt in years. Uninvited thoughts crept in that were unserving and unkind. Yet, all of this began from of PURE LOVE. A love for myself that I had never known. A connection with the Divine that lives within me. It came from alignment, truth and authenticity. I knew who I was becoming and I was truly falling in love with that woman. I was ready to stand up and do what was right, even though I knew it might be hard, messy, hurtful and full of unknowns. But I was ready and willing, knowing that I (and everyone involved) was worth whatever temporary pain and struggle that was in store. I knew, in my heart, that in the long run, in the bigger picture, it was not only the right thing, but the best thing and the only thing to move forward. I knew this was the direction my life was meant to go next. Not because I was super unhappy, or unhealthy, or because I thought something needed to be “fixed”- but because it was my next level of life, I was answering the call of my highest good. 

This deep knowing and choice to take action seemed to catapult me into some kind of new timeline. The amount of truth I was faced with shortly after, and the quickness in which everything moved is still astonishing. I got whiplash and pulled in the undertow. 

Some may say I was/am being tested. But I believe the Universe was giving me an opportunity to either choose the old version of me who would move towards what I know to be easy, safe, comfortable and good enough. Or, to continue to move in the direction I felt called. The direction that requires trust, work, and a whole lot of unknowns. The one that outsiders may question, judge and misunderstand. This is where I began to understand and chose to return to me. Despite not knowing the outcomes or how I may get there, I had to trust that once the darkness and emotions cleared, that I would find myself yet again, and begin choosing a version of life I believe I can have and the one I desire. The one I always dubbed out of reach. Every day I have to choose the thoughts I’ll allow myself to have, and ask myself if they serve the version of me and life that I want. I have to choose as though that life is already here. And TRUST that it is coming. Not with mantras or affirmations, but with work, with feeling, with being, with knowing.

It hasn’t been easy. I continue to take one day, one thought, and one action at a time. But I feel the potential in my bones, in my soul, and I believe it’s my duty to do everything in my power to step into it.

Please know, that if you too are going through this, and maybe feel as though you’ve lost yourself. Have faith, you are there, you are being asked to release versions of yourself that no longer serve you. And you are worth it.

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