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A Dark Night of the Soul, Aligned Action, Leaps of Faith, Letting Go & Letting God. The Year of the Fire Horse continues it’s lessons. After sitting in the discomfort of things falling away and uncertainty of what’s to come, it took a lot of time to be able to truly let go and embody my faith to fully trust again. Logically, I knew releasing and trusting was what was required, but it took a bit for my heart and soul to catch up and feel that knowing in my being. My nervous system and heart were recalibrating, slowly I began to actually believe it without trying to convince myself. So, how did that happen and what came after that alignment set in? Oh, it’s getting fun. The Synchronicities began showing up again:First off, to answer how did it happen? To be quite honest, I’m not totally sure, it was almost as if it was a memory that returned, a sense of remembering. (More on this in my YouTube coming this month) As I began to truly feel the trust within my soul I organically started to release control without effort, sometimes without even realizing I had done it. The neverending need to know what was going to happen next, when it was going to happen started to subside. Then, some really interesting things began showing up. Some may argue that synchronicities are always there, and I simply wasn’t in the space to be able to receive them. That may certainly be true. But once I was, man did they come fast and furious— and it has been absolutely amazing to bear witness to! I started seeing my best friend’s dad with his dog on my morning run regularly, which brightened my day every time. One day, after running into him I saw an old friend drive by, I waved, he pulled over and I ran up to him to give him a big hug and catch up. The wild thing was, he was late for work that day, and I was off my normal timing for my run too! Not only that, but for quite some time I’d been wanting to find some kind of manual labor work where I could be outside, use my fitness in a useful way, make some extra cash, and take a break from my regular work. Low and behold, my friend NEEDED exactly that kind of help for his business at the end of his season. This opportunity not only gave me the work I’d been praying for, but allowed me to be outdoors all day (my favorite), and meet some really amazing, grounded people, even made a new friend. I felt like I had purpose, I felt connected to good people, and a sense of comradery. For the first time in a long time, I began to feel ALIVE and like ME again. Not long after this, other job offers began coming in, Coaching inquiries, retreats, events, etc. And, on the flip side, I did NOT get a job that I had applied for and was very excited about—but I was totally ok with it! I knew it meant something greater was on the way. (Talk about acceptance!) Shortly after, I met someone, by chance, because I noticed a logo on their hat, one which I may not have even acknowledged if it was a few months earlier. This led to the discovery of a shared place we both frequented and further interactions. We shared a welcomed energetic connection which has also helped me to remember and embrace my own worth. This new meeting also challenged me to recognize and honor boundaries, and ask myself “what do you want?” I began speaking my truth with confidence once again, and noticed fear finally start to leave my system. It’s been a breath of fresh air, offering a sense of relief that was long overdue.
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